the internal bloom

I think in pictures. Some tests call me a visual learner. I think I’ve said that one too many times. Nonetheless, I had the privilege of visiting a friend today who heard the words “you have stage 3 cancer” just under 3 weeks ago. I am not sure what I was expecting to see. Maybe a stiff, gaunt-looking, tired woman who was trying to seem happy to see me while fighting back her real concern about it all.

But the truth was so unexpected. Instead, today I saw hope. “I can already see the good in this,” she said. “I have been praying for several things. I didn’t expect Him to answer them like this, but I see things happening because of this situation.” Her smile was sincere and her energy was surprising. She asked about me like she always does and we talked as if nothing was different. I asked how she was handling it all and she said, “Rebecca, I have never felt the presence of God like I do right now.”

No, she is not cured, and yes she has a long road ahead of her. But today, when I looked at a woman who’s grim reality shook hands with her faith I saw an internal bloom. A beautiful blossom that was just beginning to show its petals.

“We rejoice when we suffer, knowing that suffering brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” Romans 5:3-5